Genuine feelings for someone I should not is hard
I am still in love with him. I keep trying not to and I look at a lot of men. I love a lot of them. I wish I could make this feeling go away. I don't know why I even have feelings for someone who obviously does not love me other wise he would have acted on it and done something. I made a mistake of getting my feelings so confused when I was sick. I feel like he does not like me and never has liked me. it is a game to him. we live completely in separate worlds and I can't see how it could ever work out even if I really wanted it to I feel sure he is conning me. he is not interested in me otherwise he would have shown it and done someone made an excuse to see me. he would have if he liked me. he would have found a way to get close quick and act on it. there are a lot of nice men out there. I have to look. and one day I will forget about this q**** doctor and move on and find someone much more fun and exciting and able to give me all I need.