I have a Boyfriend but I Kissed My Best Friend
Here I go... I have a boyfriend of 1.5 years now. He is wonderful and honestly, the best person I have ever met. The problem, my best friend. We have known each other for 10 years now and been close for about 4-5 years. We had a fling for about 3 years ago but it did nothing good for us so we stopped it. It caused tension for some time afterwards, but we overcame it and we are now closer than ever. My boyfriend and best friend went to school together and it were through him I met my boyfriend. For some months ago, my boyfriend became really drunk at a small get-together and kissed with a friend of his (a girl bearing the same name as me I may add). He told me and said he was really sorry. First I was sad (for like a day) and then I just did not care at all. We continued our lives as if nothing had happened. Nevertheless, this event stirred up my thoughts and I started questioning my feelings. One Friday I was at a friend's house at a party and my boyfriend was there as well. We both drank allot. About midnight at started texting with my best friend, who was on his way home after another party. At about 2 AM I followed my boyfriend’s best friend to the bus station and walked home to my best friend while my boyfriend stayed behind for half an hour before heading home. You have to understand my best friend is bipolar and I am the only person he really, fully trust, so it is weird for me to sleep at his place or vice versa. If he feels bad in some way, I will come and comfort him. We’d agreed that I’d show myself in so I did. I joined him in the bed and we talked a bit about what had happened at his party. We were both still drunk; I remember having a hard time going straight on my way there. We lied a bit in silence. Some months earlier, we were in a similar situation; I had had a drink, but not drunk enough that he noted I think and he was sober and sad. Then he tried to kiss me and I pulled away. This time he tried again and this time we kissed. After a little while, he said I’d better leave and I agreed. We agreed to pretend it never happened and I went to my boyfriend’s house and slept there. I did not felt guilty at all I still do not. That is until this weekend when my best friend and I went on this camp-ish thing with a mutual of ours, he went to school with my boyfriend as well. At night, I slept between the two of them and my best friend started trying to kiss me again. We kiss a couple of times, but I did not participate in his game. It was obvious that he wanted me I could feel his b**** through the sleeping bags. The problem, what to go? I don’t want my friend. I don’t to spoil my relationship with either of them. In two weeks, a couple of friends and I move together for a week so I’m with my best friend for a week, and I’m not sure I can take a week of unwelcome advances. TL;DRI got a boyfriend of 1.5 but I kissed my best friend of 10 years drunk. Now he tries to kiss whenever he gets the chance. In two weeks I’m going to sleep next to him for a week and I don’t know what to do. PS. English is not my native language so forgive me misspellings and grammatical errors.