Am i gay?
So i had went to jail for 6 months and was cellmates with this very tall muscular white guy. Im only 5'6 about 150 and black he had a dangerous rep and one night i woke up to him rubbing my butt.he told me to shut up in a demanding voice and tbh i was scared af so i let it happen he ended up making me give him head for like an hour and after i had to bend over so he could finger me for awhile then he slid it in me. It hurt at first but after awhile it felt good in a weird way. It got to the point where i secretely liked when he did it becauae he was never rough about it he would f** me very slow nd the way he would tell me how tight i was and i was his black b**** made me a little h**** i even started to cream on his dik (i didnt even know you could cream from your butt) but after i would always feel so terible and kinda wanted to kill myself at times. Im out of jail now of course and i would never try have s3x with another man becauae i kinda feel traumatized after that i dont even look at guys the same anymore but sometimes i do get h**** thinking about him and Mast3rBate every now and then to that thought. Im so confused what should i do? Please dont try and be funny im really lost right now