Attracted to my teenaged step-daughter
I have been living with my wife's son and daughter for a few years now. My step-daughter has blossomed from a cute little preteen girl to a developed high school freshman. All throughout this, I've been nothing but a father figure to her, guiding her, loving her (in the appropriate way), etc. I've hidden these feelings from everybody and I am very careful not to let anybody know about it.
When she takes a shower, she will come out in just a towel and walk to her room, which means she walks past me if I'm watching TV or playing video games. Every single night. She's always done that, so it's not like she's doing it on purpose or anything. I know that. I'm not deluded enough to think that she reciprocates any of my feelings.
I just... I am a father figure to her, but secretly I sometimes wish it could be much more, and we could fool around or something. I know that will never happen, and I have never (and will never) initiated anything with her, nor even hinted at anything. It all stays in my head.
I just wanted to confess this. As a man in his mid-30s, it's very common to have these feelings—I've heard from many people about this fact—but it must stay hidden. Maybe it'll go away eventually. I'm still very much attracted to my wife. It's just that her daughter has noticeably grown into a young soon-to-be woman. She has average sized b******, an amazing behind, nice toned legs (thanks to sports).
Ah well. I will continue to admire her from afar, and still be the step-dad she needs in her life. I easily separate the two, but fantasies will be fantasies...