Don't praise me I scare
Don't touch me I fear
Don't make me believe am loved I can't take anymore.
Push me away that's where I belong
Don't try to hold me near my heart is broken into pieces that I can't ever gather.
In this world I loved you more than I can justify and it's true you have hurt me more than anyone else on earth.You have broken me ,hurled my heart to its deepest core.
I know you can say why and how do I say this now dear everything can't be answered something has to be felt sometimes.
Many times I have felt you don't deserve a single thing my precious emotions I have wasted , again I have consoled myself everything I have fuelled you were clear from the start then why do I blame ..
I always intruded myself ,now if am being asked to leave the fault lies on me not on others..am was always an outsider and always will be ..The more readily I accept better was for me but with reasons known better to me I have always denied to cuddle the truth.
I created false hope,i traded my self respect,i called all humiliations myself..and now I only play the blame game.It was always I from the beginning to end never was we.
But I have learned a lesson when one is hurt to extreme after a point there lies no pain and now I don't feel anything..
It's all lie,a game of hearts that all play according to own advantage..
I dnt know what I have scribbled don't feel like going through it again also....tired I feel , used up is the feeling and the culprit is only me and it breaks me to think I called for everything myself none responsible for the pain and misery....