I am not a man
My sadness. Depression. Reminds me of my failure as a husband. As a parent. As a human being. As a man. 15 years in the emotional frozen wastelands of loneliness have taken their toll.
You took control of the house, family, kids. Pretty much every decision was taken by you. Anything I wanted had to be asked, explained, cajoled, begged. On the other hand you just did whatever you wanted. Informing me if you felt like it or not as the case may be.