I was sexually abused from a very young age until I was 18 by various people in my family in various ways. I no longer see or speak to these people (which I feel guilty about). I have only ever had three boyfriends, of whom I've only ever slept with one, and that was an ordeal. I didn't tell him I'd been abused.
I haven't had a relationship or s** since we broke up 10 years ago. I'm terrified at the prospect of dating and having s** again, even though I know I'll have to do this.