I am a prostitute
I have been raped multiple times and sexually abused as well. I am just 18. Raped by 6 different people since I was 17. First sexually abused at 4. Sexually humiliated/abused severely when I was 12 by 9 people.
I have DID/MPD. I am convinced so much that I am a worthless s***. I worked as a private prostitute for the past year because I felt I belonged there and I believe this is my destiny. Since I was 15 I gave blow jobs to willing men ages 15 - 20.
At clubs I am often a go-go dancer and would pole dance for hours until a man chose to take me to a hotel and paid me good money for s**.
I hurt everyone doing this. But my MPD makes me do it. I am not even aware that I am doing it and I would wake up in the morning, in my car or in a hotel and find the money I was paid and that I smell like s**.
Part of me enjoys doing it. I am a flirt by nature and I love clubbing and being seductive, but I don't like this random s** and being a prostitute, but I feel I am meant to be. My boyfriend has stood by me, because he knows the one who is cheating on him is not really me. I love him so much.
I am a gay male.