I wish I could die already. I'm failing algebra class, and even though I go to tutoring, I'm still failing. My mother hates me, and says I'm the reason why everyone's summer will be miserable if I have to go to summer school. I'm the reason why everyone is miserable you see. Even when i go out of the house to get my hair dyed it makes everyone miserable because they have to go with me, for I'm still a kid. According to my mother it puts her in a bad mood. “You are the reason why I'm so cranky. And I don't care that you have social anxiety, I'm gonna bust your f****** ass and tell it straight to your face if your grades don't get better.” Even my teachers hate me. When I don't get my work done due to my crippling social anxiety and depression they get so furious, saying how it's no excuse. I feel terrible being absent, for I know that puts more stress on my teachers and therefore they dislike me even more. I can tell my friends get annoyed by the fact that I wont stop bugging them for help, such as on homework or advice on how to ask a girl out. I bet they are so much happier that I'm absent than in school. I bet they can't stand my f****** annoying high pitch voice or how much acne and moles I have on my face.
That is why I've finally made a decision. I'm gonna end my life tomorrow, at school.(if I go, I actually have a pretty nasty cold) The next time I go to school I'm gonna do it. I've been chickening out for so long, I need to cut it out. I'm still trying to figure out the best method. I was thinking about bringing a plastic bag into the bathroom and suffocating myself. But I wanna go in a pain free way. So I'm kinda still doing research on what method is the least painful. If you have any ideas, please comment and let me know. Your help is greatly appreciating.