Hello, I'm 23 years old from Ohio, Usa. I dont even know where even to begin.. I lost my dad as I kid and was bullied in elementary and middle school and Ive strayed so far from God on and off since I was 13. I want to be a christian. But feel I am to flawed. I used to do pills and have drug issues. I have been clean over 4 years. But... I used to(and still have urges) with a stealing problem. It started small things, than got large over time. The lies for coverups got worse and worse. In 2015 I was arrested for shoplifting and did my community service and thought it was going to stay in my past. But it has come back. I stole a laptop from someone but I returned it but are facing legal action. I'm afriad. I need God. I dont concider myself a bad person. I dont abuse anyone. Love my animals. Dont go out and party anymore. But I cant find a church or seem to move on. I am going to therapy and going to try to find some help with my stealing. I need forgiveness and pray for courage and strength.