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Maybe cheating isn't bad?
Me and my girlfriend got together while we where both Meath addicts, at the time it was convent I had just turned 18 she had a car and a place for me to sleep and a ** little job. Now I have made changes with my life I'm no longer a Meath addict I'm almost 21 and I'm not a horrible looking guy. My gf has a lot of baggage including a 5 year old (not mine at all) and she is fat not to mention I have a lot of family issues. She is convinced we are going to be together forever like FOREVER the whole time I'm alive on this piece of ** rock flying through space. Realistically I know I'm going to need to have ** with other people I feel it already I've been faithful for almost 3 years through all the ** and I feel like the best parts of the whole relationship was during the year or so we where smoking meth together it's boring now she is boring I hate having ** with her I need something else and I am going it have it and it's going to be so good and worth it. I know u can do better than what I have I want spice and amazing ** and the thrill of someone new to please and new thrills. It ** because I do like her but I am going to break her heart so bad but I'm starting to resent her, she has even miscarried my baby after she ** her xboyfriend for $80 to buy meth and 151 liqueur while I was strung out and it's so bad because I know that it was probably a blessing it wasn't born because obviously I am a ** person and I am riding along in a relationship that I regret and resent everyday
Prepare for separation. Take the burden of leaving on yourself. Get a place to stay and prepare to take your stuff and leave the stuff you might own with her. Sell what you can to lower the burden.
Get into a different city. Distance will help. Then hit new places for new friends. New hobby could bring new clubs and people's.
Start going to a night class. Art or a foreign language. This will allow for a chance to be invited unto a different sorts of situations. Invited to openings of music fests or other cultural events.
In fact get out of the house or apartment as much as you can. Bowling 3 nights a week. Can you disconnect enough that it is just her place you are crashing at. Not your kid. Not forever.
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your unborn baby. As per your relationship - end it. Leave if it is easier, but if you want to make it right, speak with her and explain this needs to change. She needs to change. I hope this helps.