still a virgin and humiliated
I'm a 25 year old woman and still a virgin. I'm humiliated about this, and lie to people when they ask me.
Growing up I had a bit of a weight problem and didn't want anyone to see my body... or to really know me... out of fear of rejection.
now i am not that bad, still slightly overweight but relatively pretty... but i have zero experience, haven't even kissed anyone, and i feel like i missed the normal time to learn about sexuality, so now its just this big mystery and really awkward. I don't know how to even approach dating anyone. I've never had a boyfriend.
i don't talk about s** at all with my friends, I'm so embarrassed about my lack of experience. i feel like if i ever met anyone, they would know right away that i'd never been with anyone, they'd think something was wrong with me.
in every other part of my life i'm completely fine... i have lots of friends, i'm doing well in school, i'm social and go out with people, i'm friends with guys and feel comfortable around them... but we never ever talk about s**. Someone will start telling me a story and I'll listen, but I have nothing to say back.
Recently I've starting looking online for random hookups, just to get some experience. i don't know if i'd ever have the guts to go through with it though.
what should i do??