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I'm 11, and feeling depressed. I won't say I am depressed yet.
Hi, I'm... let's say Bob, I can't think of a decent online name. Although I'm a girl. So, I just started a new school, a secondary school. It's the best school in the city, and you have to study loads to get in. I've been studying from year 2. (grade 2 to you Americans). And recently, the work at school is so hard and I can never seem to concentrate. I'm always forgetting the homework, the books, what I was going to say... I'm starting to forget my personal information. I hesitate when I announce my birthday, my name, what town I live in. I... told people somebody's locker code.. I know, punish me, I deserve it. Please, I'm terrible. People were pushing me (physically) and hiding my books and my keys and I wanted it to stop. So I told them. And now I feel guilty everyday, at all times, and the only people who can relieve all my sad feelings are my old friends from my old school. Two boys. They're like the lights of my life. I look forward to reading their texts, to facetiming them. Anyway.
I can't make decisions anymore. Sometimes I wish I was never born. I don't wish I killed myself, no. Because that would hurt everyone around me because I know there are people who love me. But if I were never born... now that's a whole other story. That girl who I told one person's locker code to... wouldn't bully me. Other people wouldn't put so much pressure on me. The homework wouldn't crush me. I wouldn't come home with a black eye and a bruised leg. But, I feel like I deserve this pain. I completely deserve it. At home, I've been honest, that good little girl. I've always been good. But the few mistakes I've made, they're huge mistakes. Not lots of small ones. A few gigantic ones. And I feel like I'm being crushed by it. Today I'm in a particularly good mood. The two boys have been texting ** emojis and funny pictures of themselves. My history essay turned out to be not such a failure. Although most of the time, I do feel like a complete failure.
You know what guys? I think I'll post on here more. It's made me happier. getting it off my chest. Thanks.
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