I have an obsession

Ever since I was little I became obsessed with teachers (as I wanted to be one) I would pretend they were my mother or farther. It would never be anything sexual. I am now currently 16 years old. Last year I meet an amazing elementary school teacher. (My school starts at the age of 5 - 18) we started to become close. At first it was just a little obsessive. I ended up being at the same church as her. (At the time I was wanting to go to that church but then I found out she and another teacher goes there so I didn't want to look like I was following them.) She got me to come along and I explained my issue that it looks a bit stalkerish. She understood and stood up for me. She became an "unofficial mentor" we became extremely close. She allowed me to come and work in her class, I have started dressing like her with out realising it. (We had a very similar style to began with). She has given me rides home from school and church. I have also become close with her husband as well who looks at me like his daughter. She does the same. It's become a joke where we are a "church family" since my family doesn't go to church. I asked her once if she would be my mentor. She told me that she was thinking about her mentoring me the other day and that she wishes she could, she told me she will think about it. She came back to me saying she can't because she's a teacher and it can come arcoss dodgy but she wants to mentor me once I finish school. Once I was biking delivering little gifts to people from church. They were one of my stops. On the way there I cut myself when I fell on the ground. I chose to just drop theirs off (that was 1 min away) and go home. The husband saw me and ended up helping me get bandaged up. I always think about them which I can't stop. I talk about them heaps to my friends. I fantasise that they would be my parents. I don't know how bad this is but you guys are the first to know. Could this end up becoming really bad?

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