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Steadily declining mental health
Hello, lately I've been confessing some stuff here about self-harm, well I'm still here and I just feel pretty hopeless.
I'm 16, and I've always been quite an emotional person, I don't really take things lightly that much that I think are important. For example, I am in a relationship with a girl, and I love her with my whole heart. She is amazing, kind, caring, smart, and amazingly she thinks these things of me as well which I don't understand. The problem is, she lives in Sweden and I live in New Zealand, the other side of the world. We both have not had the best track records for mental health, she is on anti-depressants and I have had depression for many years, I've even attempted suicide before. But a great thing about us is that we are not afraid or uncomfortable about those kinds of things and so we can support each other easily, but I'm still terrified that she will do something seriously stupid like trying to kill herself. I get worried about her if she hasn't replied to a Facebook message within 3 days and I start to panic. I'm extremely worried about her because I would hate for anything bad to happen to her.
Lately I've been in a steady decline of mental health. I've started self-harming again, I sometimes can't seem to find joy or pleasure in things, I don't talk to people outside of my family that much, I don't go outside some days, it's hard to get out of bed. I should probably have another doctor's appointment, but I can't bring myself to do it. I feel worthless sometimes or just don't see the point in doing anything. I'm so lonely, I want help, but I just reject it as a sort of knee-** reaction.
How you son. I only read your post. Im a grown man and suffer also with depression from a very young age. I wont go into details but I was sexualy abused from young age and **. I still struggle at times and even though things seem black at times. You will and can come through it as will your girlfriend. Look to those you can trust like family, friends or councelor. Please stay strong son and post anytime. Good luck to you and your girlfriend and hope yous have a great futore. would love too talk with you bought and give you bought a hugg. Keep going son...