I want to sleep with my boyfriend’s best friend.
Here is the deal. I have been with my boyfriend for about a year and three months, and I genuinely love him more than life itself. We are perfectly compatible and have an amazing s** life. He is the one I see myself spending the rest of my life with, and I would never want to do something to hurt him or lose him. His best friend on the other hand, is VERY attractive. This is a friend he has had since middle school, someone he thinks of as a brother. He lives in a different city than us, about 2 hours away so they don’t see each other in person very often. I have met him face to face only twice, but they videochat daily. Recently my boyfriend and I took a trip to his hometown and we met up with said best friend for a night. This was the first time I felt this intense sexual attraction to him. I knew he was cute, but being around him and seeing him in person sent my head into a tizzy. Since that night, I just can’t stop thinking about him. Not in a romantic way, I don’t wish he was my boyfriend instead of my own man. I can’t stop thinking about having s** with him. H***, I would be thrilled at the chance to have them both at once!
I could never tell my boyfriend I feel this way about his very best friend. Maybe he would consider a threesome since we are adventurous, but even that is wishful thinking. The guilt of having this thought is crushing me. I literally have to ignore the arousal when I hear his voice on videochat with my boyfriend, or the blush that happens when my boyfriend mentions his name. The other night when we were having s** I was even picturing what it would be like if his friend was there too. I love my boyfriend and I would never cheat on him, but I feel so bad but intrigued by the thought of having his best friend, or both of them. Is this normal? Am I a bad girlfriend?