My life is basically a mess

So I've known what ** was since I was in first grade. And now that I'm 13 in 7th Grade I don't really know what to do. I know a ** ton of things I shouldn't. I know how ** up the world is. And.... I can't stop looking at girls in my school in a ** sexual way. I wanna know how to stop doin that **. I think it might have something to do with puberty and hormones but I don't ** know. If you wanna know what I mean by sexual way I mean like looking at the girls ** and thinking about ** her and etc. Everyone at my school is obviously informed on what ** is and ** and other ** like cuss words and that bull. Anyway, they just say cuss words and ** as a joke but for me I'm dead serious sometimes when I say it. My friends one day at a sleepover found my phone and some how got into it and looked at my safari search history which, since I was pretty ** there was ** on it. They found it and I lied. But I think they know the truth. Also at the start of a break at my school I thought it would be funny on discord when my friend randomly brought up ** masturbating to hump my bed on the face cam. I ** up there. Tremendously. He ended up, 1. Recording it. 2. Adding a ton of random people on the call and 3. Sending it to a ** ton of people he knows. So I ** up. Eventually another kid kept bugging my "friend" to see the video and of course my "friend" showed it to him since he is a **. The other kid went on my "friend's" phone and ** sent it to ** everyone he knew and since he knows a ** ton of people he sent it to basically all of my grade. Which meant he sent it to my ** crush. She found out and the thing was, she was starting to ** like me. So ** that kid he was a **. Anyway fast forward a bit to now. I'm In 7th grade. My life is a mess. And I kinda wanna know your opinions on it. ** and I thought Middle School was bad. Anyways, Dm me on discord Arc#8767