To dear D. m. (Him),
I don't know how to start this message but there are few things I'd like to share here for you to read someday. I've been wanting to tell you that some relationships can't be forced. Not everything that makes you happy is good for you for the long-term. I know there's been something between us but it wasn't you who I was trying to avoid. I've been suppressing these feelings to remain under control.
I have so much on my mind that it's nobody's business to know. You're a great man and can make any woman fall for you. I wasn't expecting us to develop these emotions toward each other. Honestly, it is absolutely unacceptable to me. I've been dealing with myself lately. Why did we get into this situation? What was I thinking?
We both know there's no future for us. Maybe we caught these feelings because maybe we both completed each other's missing puzzle pieces. I'm sorry but I can't take another step towards you. We both gave bigger and better thing in the future. I'm sorry if my silence has been suffocating you. I wasn't in the right state of mind to message you.
I don't know what relationship have we created between us but alll I know is thst there is no future. I'd shed few tears realizing our reality which also illustrates self-disappointment. I'll be leaving soon. Not because of you though but because it's time for me to move on career-wise.
Take care of youself.