I don’t want to exist anymore
I brain has f***** me over. I’m so depressed and I’ve been trying for years to get better but there is no way out. I’ve been trying relentlessly. Help lines leave me on hold. Even those who are supposed to be there in crisis don’t want to hear me. No one is listening to how bad I feel, they only understand if I attempt to take my own life. This isn’t supposed to be a self pity post, I just need to let out how low I’m feeling.