When I was like 12-13 and she about 6-7 I would rub my p**** against her p**** until I’d c**. I was so h**** as a young teenager with no other outlets. There was never any penetration, somehow I thought it was less damaging? It only happened a handful of times. But after I was grown I felt ashamed and have a few times since. We are pretty close now (not sexually) but neither of us have ever talked about it and somehow it seems like we should have? Idk.
She’s beautiful now and if she consented I’d love to have s** with her. How or should I talk to her about either of these things?