Always been homophobic, now afraid I might be gay
Ok Im going to be totally honest here and say that Ive always benn kind of homophobic. I never wanted to, like, beat up gay dudes or anything but I always figured being gay was kind of sick and pathetic. Ive called gay guys names behind their backs forever, mostly "f*****". Ive never even felt bad about it until now.
Anyway, I was always proud to be straight. Im 23 and have been with a few girls and only watched straight p*** and stuff. Sure I preferred the dudes to have big c**** but not because I wanted to look at their c**** or anything.
So I have an older brother who I always figured was as straight as me. Im staying with him for a few weeks over the summer and when I got there a couple of days ago I got there in the morning instead of afternoon when i was supposed to. I cant find him when i get there so I go upstairs to look. When I get there his bedroom door is open and I hear a lot of moaning. I sneak over and look in and I see my brother on the bed on his back with his feet up on some dark skinned dude's shoulders and the guy is f****** his ass hard.
Just looking at this guy from the back I can tell that hes lean and muscled and I realized I was staring at his clenching ass and jiggling b****. I got hard and almost came in my pants. All i could do was get out of there as quiet and fast as i can.
I ended up driving around the city for hours but my erection wouldnt go down. Twice I had to pull into a back alley and j*** off until I came. Im even touching my d*** as I write this in my brother's spare bedroom. When i close my eyes I can still see him getting f***** by that dude. I have no idea what to think or what to say to him.
The worst thing is that now Im thinking of my brother as a f***** and Im calling myself one inside my head too. I shouldnt but thats what im thinking. Does this mean Im gay?
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I had a boyfriend who f**ked me a few times a week for two years. After I moved I was somewhat homophobic with the boys in school, I didn't want anyone to know that I had slept with another boy. Being really cute and feminine looking my smoothness and sweet faced looks attracted lots of boy's attention and even men. I tried acting so tough and hard like to keep my secret. Eventually I was seduced by a thirty year old guy who could see through me. It was wonderful, I was so submissive and wanting!
All the labels.. dude just be you.
Do you ever find yourself attracted to males? If yes then you’re at least bi. So what anyway. Just stop hating the gays.
I'm straight and once in a while I like to watch male p***. Sometimes I get turned on and j*** it.
I know a guy who literally would go to gay bars with another big redneck friend and yell "FAGG0TS!!!"
He is now a convicted child molester and a drag queen. And he now claims that "everybody's gay, they just don't know it yet."
His name is Mark, aka "Miss DoMeHard." These are just a few, minor examples of how intelligence and creativity are not strengths for him.
The worst ones are the ones in denial until they're outed, then suddenly "everybody is gay." That's a sign of weakness.
It's a sign of narcissism. Which is a massive weakness
Of course not. Your brother getting busy with a dude has nothing to do with you