Here’s this friend of mine I’ve known since middle school. Let’s call him Forest, for his sake. He was always kind to me, even when I was an ass to him, and I seriously thank him for that. He’s the only person from middle school I consider a friend, and, even though I don’t always hang out with him, I do consider him my closest friend. The confession is this; I’ve wanted to suck his c*** for years and years now. Ever since I was at least 15 or 16, I’ve wondered how long his c*** was, how it tasted, if it was circumcised or not, everything a closet c********* wants to know. I’ve never revealed my feelings towards him, because he’s too close a friend for me to lose, and if it turns out he isn’t into me sucking his c***, I don’t want it to be awkward between us. The closest I ever got was when he was sleeping over when we we’re younger. I had my own room at that time, which was a taste of freedom, as I have always shared a room with my brothers, and he was, as previously stated, sleeping over. He liked to stay up late and definitely watch hentai on my laptop (You’re not fooling me, I know how the internet works), and most likely j*** off. Needless to say, I was pretty h**** that night, and wanted to suck him off more than anything, but never got further than going to the bottom of my bed and just breathing heavily. You gotta understand, I was convinced I was going to ask my friend some embarrassing questions, so to say I was nervous was an understatement. He seemed to hear me (no s***), and asked if I was alright. I said yeah, and we talked a bit and joked around about sock p***. Don’t remember the specifics, but that night I learned that there was a fetish for people who like socks. We looked it up on some p*** website, but unfortunately, nothing ever came from it. I chickened out, and went to sleep. Before I got into my current fetish, I wouldn’t j*** off to p***. I was a good little Christian boy, and that’s a no no. The whole reason I started watching and looking at p*** was to not think about sucking him off. It’s all I would j*** off to. The feeling of his c*** in my mouth, using me as his fleshlight, and swallowing his salty load. I occasionally give him rides home from work every now and then, and every time I do, I want to take him behind the middle school and suck him off. It’s killing me, but I’ll never do anything about it, unless he sees this and connects the dots. If you are reading this, forest, I most likely still do want to suck your c***. Doesn’t matter when, where, or how, I want it in my mouth. You know my discord.