I'm a 35yo male and never even been on a date.
Ive never had s**. Ive never kissed a girl. Ive never even held the hand of someone I loved. S** isn't even the issue here. That's not my goal. I don't want to be with someone sexually that I am not devoted to and who is not also in turn devoted to me. I wouldn't say I'm physically unattractive. I'm not over weight or physically abnormal. Quite average I guess actually. But I have never gotten a yes from my attempts at asking a woman out and I have certainly never been asked by someone else. I don't know what other people see in me that drives them off like that but it has resulted in extreme loneliness and depression. I cant talk to anyone I know about this for fear of ridicule. All I want is someone to spend time with. To go out to where ever and have a good time with. To do the little things together like share a meal with or just hang out and watch movies and perhaps even play some games with. Eventually I would hope this fantasy person would develop deeper feelings for me and maybe in turn so would I. Ive pretty much lost all hope because of my age. I'm pushing 36 and I doubt someone 10 years younger than me would be interested. Also, I am terrified that when someone my age learns of my absolute inexperience in all regards of a relationship that they would be immediately put off and start to wonder what is wrong with me. I know that I don't think that I can handle being alone for much longer but I don't have hope anymore. I am completely alone.