I can't get over my first sexual experience

I have no idea why I'm posting this. I guess it just gives me a chance to just tell someone. I was bullied for years at school. In my final year, four other boys got me alone. I had no idea what they were up to as I was forced to kneel down. It was only when the ring leader stood in front of me and opened his pants that it dawned on me what they had in mind. I tried to struggle, but I was already down there, and the other three had no difficulty in keeping me in position. I got a punch in the ribs when I refused to open my mouth and so, bawling my eyes out, I opened my lips and let him put his p**** in my mouth. After another punch to the body, I clamped my lips around him, he held my head and slowly started thrusting. It was only a matter of seconds before he came. Jesus Christ! Twenty-odd years later, I can still recall the horror of feeling his s**** spurt into my mouth. I was told to swallow, and my arm was twisted up my back. So I did, gagging in disgust as this warm slime slid down my throat. He withdrew and they ran off. Thank God I didn't have to do them all. All these years later, I still feel so ashamed that my first experience of s** was a homosexual encounter with the class bully.

Apr 15, 2020

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  • You should look him up and than go and kill him.

  • My bf was abused as well during his teen years. I’m deeply sorry this happened to you. I found this website to gain deeper understanding of his experience. I hope this may help in someway: https://livingwell.org.au/

  • You should have told someone if this is true. Sexual activity should be consensual and fun.

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