Secretly want to get fatter
That I really love my belly. The bigger it is the more I like it. Took a lot of years but figured out that growing up in the south has a lot to do with it. My role models all had the classic beer belly of the big eating southern men. They would tell me in a good way how I was 'getting big' or 'you're getting as big as us guys'. Things like this must have stayed with me sort of subconsciously I guess. As I got bigger, I felt more of a man. When I see other men with big bellies, I like it. When I see those folks know who are older and even among my male friends, I like it when they slap or poke my belly and say I am looking good. Most ask how I am but they look at my belly instead of my eyes! When my wife feeds me a big meal, I love that full feeling. It even turns me on. She loves this. And I love when I'm on top and my belly is pressing down on her. I feel like such a man. Well, there is so much more, but don't want to bore anyone.