Feeling bad after I quit dating a religious girl

My gf of three years would not allow me to ** her although we do every thing of ** - **, **, ** massage, ** sucking, ** massage to ** to ** **. During the last three years her ** have grown through my handling them and ** lips have become fluffy. But her treasure called virginity or hymen has remained untouched. Am I wasting my time with her?

I married a religious girl. We agreed no ** except to make kids. I have not had ** or masturbated for years. It used to make me depressed.