My subconcious rebels against my conscience
I'm an active intactivist, I go to protests, I am active on Facebook and Twitter, and I support my intact husband and my intact son. I'm convinced that circumcision is cruel, unnecessary, harmful and evil.
I was introduced to intactivism by my now-husband, eight years ago. Before that I didn't really know about circumcision, I wouldn't have been able to tell you what it even was exactly. Since I got into intactivism, I've learned all about it. This included learning about how it's done, and seeing some movies of the procedure.
The movies of babies being circumcised disgust me. Movies of adult men being circumcised should disgust me too, but they don't. They turn me on. I keep waking up soaking wet from dreams where my hubby gets circumcised. I can't c** anymore without fantasizing about circumcision.
This isn't me, this isn't how I chose to be. And I'm afraid my hubby will turn away from me if I confess to him.