I need help please I'm desperate.
I've been through a lot in my life. I believe two years ago I was deep into my depression and suicidal thoughts I tried killing myself a lot but I ended up being put into a long term mental health facility because dcf decide my mother was being neglectful and I was extremely suicidal I pretend to get better and after a while, I thought I was ok but now I'm in deep again I've started cutting again and it's so hard to stop I don't know what to do I want to be better now but... I don't know how I need help but don't know where or who to go to. I feel helpless and lost please if you can help me at all please I beg you help me I'm 18 and I've been dealing with this all my life