My mother told me I should kill myself.
First, some context. I'm 13, I'm having family issues with my grandmother, which is causing everyone to freak out. My mother was already depressed and drunk alcohol, but now it's even worse. On top of all that, school is stressing everyone out, and Covid is making it even worse. I'm really sensitive both physically and emotionally. Recently, the end of the first semester for school came. I was struggling to finish my work, so I stayed up late to do school work. My mother was in the room, very drunk, and she started listing off all the assignments I was missing, that I was currently trying to fix. She said multiple times without stop how I was a failure, and how I would never amount to anything. At one point, I was so upset that I asked her if I should kill myself. She said yes. Whenever she asks me why I'm mad at her, I'll bring this up and she'll say that I was just making stuff up and being dramatic. She's never physically abused me, and I don't want to call CPS because I can't go with my father for legal reasons, and I'm afraid that if I go into foster care or an orphanage, I'll get separated from my brother, who is one of the only reasons I haven't committed sucide. I don't know what to do.
(I apologize for all the word vomit)