My wife has lost interest. Feeling my oats, I looked at some po-n. I am not sure what or how, but I have a new desire. I want to have s** with a black lady. I got really excited seeing the pink inside contrasting the dark surrounding skin. There is a coworker who hits on me that I am now wanting to bang and see the contrast. But I cannot risk my marriage in hopes my wife comes around. So I should...?