I have fallen in love with a Catholic Priest
I've known him for years. He's been there for me as I came back to the faith, he helped me to leave an awful relationship, and he has been a big help to me in figuring out my spirituality. I have also been a big help to him, especially since he has recently become a parish priest and is overwhelmed. He says he appreciates having me around as a friend and comfort.
But I have very strong feelings for him, and recently I've felt him kind of withdraw from me. I know it's probably for the best (so I can move on and begin a relationship with someone who can actually love me back), but it hurts to see him get chummy with other young women or talk to others more than to me. It makes me feel really worthless or silly for even thinking I was, in any way, special to him.
There are a few other women in particular whom he is also close with, and every time he speaks to them or about them I feel a pang in my chest, I feel like an idiot. I hate the way this makes me so jealous, especially over someone who doesn't and won't ever love me the way I want him to. I feel so empty and unfulfilled in all of this.