I'm feeling sick
I went on my first lesbian date ever in an attempt to try something new with my newfound singleness.
Everything went great... until she told me what her intentions were. In that moment, everything became real. This was a real human with real feelings looking for a commitment and I'm just here looking for fun.
I spent the rest of the evening projectile vomiting in her car... even more so when she proceeded to go into detail about how good it feels to eat another woman out, all while watching me with a hungry look in her eyes.
Now every time I think about her, I want to throw up. Yet, another part of me is touched that even after I got sick in her car, she still wants to spend time with me and I feel curious... How does it feel?
Confused. Perhaps I'm not as gay as I thought!