Done being good

I started smoking cigarettes in my 40’s because my husband has a smoking fetish. He’s asked me about a few times over the years; so I finally said I would do it for him.

We both said it would be a “once in while” thing. He was against me smoking full time. I started to really, really enjoy it. I told him I just didn’t care — I’m smoking !

We both worry about my health; but we love it !

I’m ashamed to admit I actually did it. I tried it and it seemed sort of nasty, smelly and pointless at first. Not the thrill or fun I thought it would be. I thought that was it, I was done. But the curiosity made me keep trying from time to time - slightly relaxing. Then one time home along with a glass of wine and “bam” it felt so goooood; I got wet. Now it’s getting out of hand. I’m sneaking about 4 a day; but I just want more.

If the idea of it does that much for you it's time to let up your inner "naughty girl" and give it a try.

I recommend you start by sneaking a very light menthol cigarettes light a long ** Virginia Slims 120. Have a drink, puff lightly and think about how it contradicts all of your healthy values and habits. Think about what a ** "bad girl" thing it is to do.

Cigarettes are very addictive; keep up your healthy lifestyles and don't push yourself. Get used to them and let them lure you in with their pleasure.

You deserve this.

This is the way; you need to explore your feelings. You’ll either get it out of your system; or re-invent yourself.

Any update? Did you start?

Don't do it. It an absolute waste of health and money.