Closeted Bi Married Crossdresser
First my wife has no clue I am BI or crossdress. I have dressed since I was 11 staring with my mom's panty girdles, bras and corsets. Had my first gay o***** when I was 13 with a boy down the street. My wife is away and I have been dressing every day and night. Today at work I am wearing panties bra stockings and girl jeans. I shaved my legs, panty area, underarms this morning. I so would love to tell her so I could dress full time but I tried early in when we first got married but I could tell it would not go well. For the past 30 years I have hidden my dressing. I underdress every day for work in panties and stockings and a bra when it is cold so I can wear a t-shirt and thick over shirt.
I do have a n other crossdresser I play with and love to give him oral but he has some ED so he cant take me anally, I so want a real male lover to make me the woman I want to be. I have gone to ABS and given head and been f***** there but I have to travel a ways to get there.
I would like to ask you all should I tell my wife?