I'm Straight, but just got off to a fantasy about a Gay friend
I'm straight and I've had a very close gay friend Ryan for about 3 years now. We are both in our mid 20s and met at an MBA program in a small school in New England.
We both know everything about each other including sexual histories. As an undergraduate I went though a bondage phase. I submitted to an much older woman Tracy. She was the best s** I ever had. Still hook up now and then even though she is now 50, usually after I go through a break up.
Ryan always teases me with how much better he is at bondage. He brags that he has better rope skills, restraints, toys, furniture, etc.... than Tracy. Also how much better a d*** would feel over a strap on and that he could make me c** without touching my d***. I always tease him back by leading him on and then acting naive. It's been an ongoing joke almost since we became friends. That said I'm pretty sure he would take me up on it if I gave him the opportunity.
This morning I was beating off and the image of him f****** me while I was cuffed to his "f*** bench" came into my head. I got off so hard it shocked me. Never found a man attractive and definitely never got off to one. I'm so confused and not sure what to do. I just had to tell someone so I Googled confession and found this site. Any advice is very much appreciated?