I wish I was dead.

I hate society,I hate the government, I hate being poor,I hate being disabled, I hate not having a job or being approved for disability, I hate being single, I hate the thought of being with someone, Too many rude people, too many crazy people, tired of being in physical pain, so many things I hate and so many people I don't trust. Tired of my ex not paying child support, tired of my ex husband's wife harrasing me and my family every time we go out in public. I live with my mom,two disabled brothers and my teenage daughter. Growing up I was emotionally and verbally abused by my dad and the rest of us as well. They say it gets better with time but that's a myth I am 35 and it never ends. I never in my life have been on vacation. I don't live a good life like everyone else. I don't plan suicide but I sure don't want to live anymore because I know it won't stop.

Jul 9

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