To Know Me Is To Love Me

I'm 17 years old, and I'm a lonely soul. I have a very hard time making friends. But I've been with my first boyfriend for almost two years now. I love him very much, and he loves me. However I have a hard time connecting with anyone on a mental, philosophical and intellectual level. I feel like no one really knows or understands me or who I am, even my boyfriend. I feel like we connect less than we did when we met at age 15. But I could never leave him, I care about him too much. But we don't ever talk about anything deep. He is still immature and silly.
We have a friend who is very shy, and recently I've discovered that we connect very well on a mental level. He is a lonely soul as well. We both feel alone in this world. We talk about philosophy and learning and music and everything I care about. I feel like he truly understands me.
I think I'm falling in love with him.
My boyfriend and I have nothing left to talk about.
I am afraid. What should I do? I feel like a terrible person.

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  • You need to be selfish for one moment and do what you think is right for you and what will make you happy.

    You shouldn't be lonely. You don't deserve to be lonely. Do what will make you happy in the long run. You need to be able to connect with the person you are dating.

    Good luck

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