To Know Me Is To Love Me
I'm 17 years old, and I'm a lonely soul. I have a very hard time making friends. But I've been with my first boyfriend for almost two years now. I love him very much, and he loves me. However I have a hard time connecting with anyone on a mental, philosophical and intellectual level. I feel like no one really knows or understands me or who I am, even my boyfriend. I feel like we connect less than we did when we met at age 15. But I could never leave him, I care about him too much. But we don't ever talk about anything deep. He is still immature and silly.
We have a friend who is very shy, and recently I've discovered that we connect very well on a mental level. He is a lonely soul as well. We both feel alone in this world. We talk about philosophy and learning and music and everything I care about. I feel like he truly understands me.
I think I'm falling in love with him.
My boyfriend and I have nothing left to talk about.
I am afraid. What should I do? I feel like a terrible person.