I don't know if I can do it

When we were young my husband gave me a necklace with an open lock on it. It is means that I'm supposed to have ** with anyone that asks. Years gone by and we have kids now. No one ever said anything about it, until recently. This guy at work asked me what it is and why I wear it. The whole situation wasn't like I thought it would be when my husband and I first talked about it and I was really embarrassed. I really wanted to lie to him. It took a lot but I told him. He seemed to be really confused. He point blank asked me if I would do it with him and I told him that I'm supposed to. He hasn't asked and I don't know if I can if he does. I'm not the same person I was when my husband gave it to me. I told my husband, he thinks I need to follow through if it comes up. Having kids does things to a woman and while I wasn't winning any beauty contests before giving birth, I'm certainly not now. I'm also self conscious about how I look but having someone interested in me this way again is kind of flattering. But, on the other hand, you shouldn't sh*t where you eat too. And, I'm not sure how my husband would react if I actually go through with it. Talking about a fantasy is one thing but actually doing it is a completely different thing.

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