I'm in love.
I am totally infatuated. He's the greatest conversation, he thinks I'm funny and beautiful, he's smart and cultured, we have the same taste in film and music. He's got a classically handsome face that I could look at forever and he makes me feel so loved, I just want to be around him all the time.
But I can't tell him. Mainly because I've kept up this coy demeanour that I don't dare break down because I haven't got a clue how to tell people things like this. We have such a precious and special friendship that I don't want to jeopardise it. I have never felt like this about anybody and it's consuming me and physically hurting me. However, it isn't just as simple as telling him how I feel and it all working out anyway, because on top of the fear of telling him the truth, we're both going our seperate ways in life. I'm going to lose him forever.