Trapped in a perfect happy marriage
I am a 31 yr old male who is in a great marriage with possibly the greatest woman on earth. We have been married three years, but have been in a relationship for almost eight years. She has been supportive, unselfish and just the greatest. I always pictured my life with her and thought "this is it, I found the person to be forever with" Here comes the twist, for about two months I have been talking with someone that has completely infatuated me. I can’t stop thinking about this person. This person also happens to be a guy. I have never thought of myself as gay or bisexual, I have never really been attracted to men, but there is something about this guy that I have really fallen for. I talk to him every night, I find myself sneaking out to speak on the phone and lying to my wife. It’s terrible! I never thought I would be one of those men that cheated on their wife and most importantly she does not deserve this. She is amazing yet I am engaging in conduct that may hurt her deeply. I am completely trapped, I don’t want to hurt her, but at the same time I can’t stop thinking about this guy. It makes me ponder my sexuality, but again even that is difficult because I have never been attracted to another man. I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be a bad husband and most importantly a bad person. I don’t know what to do. Goes to show that it is true that we really cannot control what we feel.