careful what you wish for
the father of my children and i split 5 years ago. i never worried or cared about finding anyone new. really, i never did. the thought of becoming one of those desperate over 30 needs-a-man types repulsed me. i never did become that girl. i look at myself today, and yes, for all intents and purposes i am the furthest thing from that. in fact, i have no desire for any man at all. not in the whole wide world. isn't that awesome? not really. somewhere along the way i broke myself. no idea how, when or where. i'm incapable of that sort of longing anymore and i'm not getting any younger. way to jump from the frying pan into the fire. all the equipment works but i'm emotionally frigid. yay me.