This Rejections Got Me So Low
I've been in love with someone for over ten years.
They've asked repeatedly if they're leading me on, and every single time, Ive told them that they're not, because I'm afraid they'd disappear if they knew how in love with them I am.
I've asked them to accept me as their significant other every single time we've talked, and every single day for the past 5 years, I've told them "I love you". Every. Single. Day.
Its not a secret how crazy i am about them. My parents buy them a christmas present, because they think we're perfect together, and Ive heard their familiy members asking eachother what our status is.
Its getting to be too much. The constant rejection has destroyed my self esteem, and I'm on anti-depressants. But still I cant stop talking to them. I've tried seeing other people, but it doesnt work, if anything it teaches me how much I need this person.
I tried telling them, 6 months ago, that I cant handle it anymore, and they started crying and telling me that it would destroy them if i abandoned them. Even after that, they told me that they just dont feel "that way about me", when I begged them to be mine.
Its beyond too much.