Im madly in love with a married man. ive been with him for 9 months, his wife knows about me. i know about her. we both have eachothers phone numbers. and we dont talk. he's lied to me for about 6 of our 9 months. he tells me he's leaving her for me, once everything gets settled. but im not sure on to how it will go. i secretly want to hate him. but i just cant. i cry myself to sleep every night. i find every chance i can to trust him. but every chance, he kills me slowly. i wish upon everything you can wish upon, but wishes never come true. ive done things to walk away, but i cant ever go through with it. he's always on my mind. i love him. with everything i have. i just want her to go away.