I can't take it anymore.
There's too much stress and my stomach is constantly twisted into knots. I feel like I'm about vomit all the time. School is just eight hours of soul crushing horror. I'm going to fail. I want to learn, but I can't pay attention. I don't think any of my friends acuatlly like me or care about me. I had a mental breakdown in the middle of class. I feel like I will never find happiness or truly be loved. Music is the only thing that makes me feel even partially human. I'm a creep, a weirdo, a freak, a creature. I don't deserve happiness. I see all those smiling, normal kids that surround me and I want that so badly and I know I will never have it and it kills me inside.