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I can't take it anymore.
There's too much stress and my stomach is constantly twisted into knots. I feel like I'm about vomit all the time. School is just eight hours of soul crushing horror. I'm going to fail. I want to learn, but I can't pay attention. I don't think any of my friends acuatlly like me or care about me. I had a mental breakdown in the middle of class. I feel like I will never find happiness or truly be loved. Music is the only thing that makes me feel even partially human. I'm a creep, a weirdo, a freak, a creature. I don't deserve happiness. I see all those smiling, normal kids that surround me and I want that so badly and I know I will never have it and it kills me inside.
I know how you feel. I hate myself, and I hate most everybody I know, mostly my friends (messed up, right?). I'll never be normal, cause I'm messed up in the head, but my mom likes to pretend I'm normal and will never get me help.
I think we all just have to live out our lives, whether they're normal, or as ** up as can be.
maybe you should go talk to someone or explain it to someone you can trust.
^Jake wrote that