Is constant, asthma which medicine doesn't completely banish

Is constant asthma or other constant pain or discomfort a good reason to lose faith in God? Thats what happened to me when I was younger then ten. Here I sit at age 77 sick with asthma. I have the latest medicines without which I might suffocate to death but I am painfully short winded. Asthma hurts in addition to being short of breath. I've had this ** since I was an infant baby.

My father once said that I should thank God for the medicine. Not going to happen. If God was really up there and all powerful kind just and loving this ** wouldn't happen.

There are other diseases that are as bad or worse and the victims didn't do a ** thing to deserve it. I mean if I had got COPD and asthma from smoking cigarettes I could blame myself for this but since I was born with this ** and never smoked wy the ** do I have and and have had it my whole ** life.

God are you up there? It sure doesn't look like it.