I effed my one of my good friends boyfriend..

I ** my friends boyfriend of one year. i was 13
**I lost my v card before I had my first kiss*
(please do not judge my story I've heard enough)
^currently 14 and I am a freshman..^

Backstory :

I was friends with this dude in end of 6th grade and we got really close in 7th. Lets call him Jay. It was never really like romantic idk and then he got a girlfriend in 8th grade we started talking less. Lets call her Amelia. Me and his girlfriend were very close in 7th grade and stoped talking for the most part in 8th. We became friends again at the end of the school year, while me and her boyfriend who I had been friends with for a while never stopped being friends we just did not talk a lot but we could call eachtoehr about anything really. So come summer time, going into 9th grade me and the girl hangout a few times and we aren't as close as we used to be in 7th but we are still like good yk? So that night she was at my house and she was on the phone with her boyfriend who was also my friend so we were all talking and then later that night she leaves, like she goes home it's getting late you know.. I was just chilling at home then "Jay" calls me. Which is kinda weird idk he doesn't usually call me unless he has something to tell me but it just seemed like he was calling.. just to like call? Then he was saying oh how it would be so funny to see me drunk (I had been drinking earlier that night when I was with "amelia" on the phone with "Jay") and he was joking that he wanted to see me drunk. He had mentioned that before so it was nothing weird (or so I thought) and so he was like u should come over I have liquor. I was a ** fein back then for alcohol so I was like okay whatever so I sneak out my house get on my bike and go to his house. It wasn't even sexual between me and him till he started saying "wanna watch **" WTFFFFF. I was drunk at the time so I was like ya why not- thinking about that ** now I'm like yea that ** is weird as **. So he just starts taking his cltihes off cuz it was hot in the room- idk we were just like cuddling at first for some reason.. which was weird bc this dude.. HAS A GIRLFRIEND.. but okay?? then idk what happened but we just started **. I will spare the details of me walking to the nearby gas station to go buy condums.. and the lady at the cashier looking at me like I was crazy.. but yea. I had to confess that. He never told his girlfriend and she still does not know. It has been like 4 months now and he also cheated on his gf w some other girl too and she found out about it and they are still together..? Ion know yall I'm bout done.