Couple swap

Earlier this year me and my wife swapped with another couple we know.

It all started when I confessed to my wife that I was curious to how it would be to sleep with another women as I’d only ever been with her. My wife, who I met on online dating, had slept with a few men before me so this was something we didn’t share in regards to our curiosity. When I originally got with her I was actually really bothered by her sexual past so I didn’t ever ask but as years went on I asked her more and she eventually told me she had slept with a total of 6 guys including me. We actually had open discussions about what had happened on some dates and she was a lot more open after the birth of our first child. I think this just connected us more than before.

Basically my wife has a friend she’s known for a while having attending a sports club together and she had also recently had a baby so the two of them were close because of this reason. During conversation, the friend told my wife that, although she loved being a mother, she wished she’d had more ‘fun’ before she committed. My wife said that she’d had a few conversations with other mum who loved being parents but almost mourned a previous life.

After a few conversations, my wife told me that her friend had admitted to her that she had only ever slept with her husband and she was jealous of my wife because of her sexual past. She also shared that her husband had slept with a few other people although I was never made aware how many.

When my wife told me this in conversation (which normally happened during or after **) I jokingly said that I would sleep with her friend so both of us know what someone else is like without the worry that it would actually mean anything. My wife jokingly said she’d ask and we left it there.

A few weeks past and I thought it was a joke that just past by. However, without me even knowing my wife told her friend about it all and unbelievably she said she had a similar conversation with her husband about me because of the similarities. My wife again joked and said it could happen but she’d want to swap for it to happen and it was all agreed.

When my wife first told me I didn’t believe her but she showed me the messages on her phone and said it was up to me to decide if I wanted to take it further but she would be sleeping with someone else too so we’d have to agree it’s ok.

I thought about it for a few weeks before bringing it up again and agreed I’d want to try. So it was agreed that we would all go away without the kids for a weekend and choose an adult weekend at Butlins in skegness. We shared an apartment together.

On the night it happened I nearly backed out but after a few drinks we walked back to the apartment and both couples swapped and went to different rooms.

I was actually so nervous and to be honest so was her friend. I think both of us hadn’t really thought it through how we’d actually go about it all. Like for us, we were the only other people we’d seen naked as adults and this was someone I knew well but not in a sexual way. We both agreed that to make it less awkward, we get naked and get straight under the sheets. It was the most awkward thing I’ve probably experienced as we both got naked with our backs to each other and was apologizing constantly.

Once In the bed I asked if she was ok with touching to start with and then see from there. I touched her ** and make my way to her ** and she touched my ** and we just politely chatted throughout.

I actually was so erect just because of the circumstances rather than the attraction but this actually put her at ease because her worry was I wouldn’t be able to get turned on by her.

After literally a few minutes I put a condom on and, in missionary, penetrated her. She honestly felt so different from my wife and the angle of penetration was noticeably different. I’ve never been able to last really long but to be honest I probably lasted no more than a minute. The whole thing was overwhelming.

The worst part though was the awkward silence after and just lying there. She got up to go to the toilet but as soon as she opened the door we could literally hear our partners having ** in the room opposite. To be honest it was one of the worst feelings knowing I’d let all this happen and it wasn’t as I’d ever imagined it to be.

After a while we heard there door open and I went into the lounge and met my wife. Her friend went to her partner in the room and we all went to sleep. Well I was an awake for a while shaken by the whole experience.

The morning after was really awkward and conversation was limited between us all. But both couples went their separate ways home.

Since our relationship hasn’t been the same. She doesn’t know but I feel like deep anger towards her sometimes for being able to sleep with someone and have prolonged **. She thinks that she has allowed me to get what I’ve always dreamt about but I just feel extremely embarrassed about the situation.

I’m confessing this on here because I have nobody really I can tell this too and I’d hate for people I know and family to ever find out. But as you can imagine, it really plays on my mind somedays