Not for the faint at heart.
Its been almost 1 year now. Last december I was involved in a patrol in the middle east that was hit by a Improvised explosive device (IED). 3 friends of mine were killed during the blast and I was tasked to clear the site and evac their remains. Their was a diesel spill by one that I was worried about so another and I removed him by removing a pinned limb. Looking back on it I cant help but think it was completely unnecesary. there wasnt any immediate fire risk, or anything of that sort. It pains me deeply when I heard that his family and friends had heard what happened. I just dont know if it was the right call and I cant stand the thought of his spouse and kids being disgusted with me. Thats only 1 of the 3. The flashbacks are really f****** me up some days. I dont know what im trying to accomplish by writing this but I needed to get it off my chest. thanks.