My life is mess
For the past 2 yrs my life has changed from a happy go lucky to a living nightmare. I was a homemaker giving tutions, with a 2 yr son. My husband was working in an MNC and earning a lot. We had two houses and two cars. I also had a pair of caring parents and a younger brother.
Then suddenly everything changed for worse...my son was diagnosed with autism and within 24 hrs my husband left his job coz he cant adjust. Both of us started to set out for finding jobs. I was working on a research project which was approved and hence I had to join full time. My son was getting nowhere. My hubby is still without a job so we sold one of the houses. I put my son into a special school, he doesnt speak or work or toilet train and my hubby though looks after him uses him to mask his folly. He says he cant get a job since he had to take care of our son. My parents are ready to babysit, yet my husband insists I have to stay home when he will go out TO FIND A JOB!! And now when I am selected for a govt job. a good one you see I am a PhD, I came to know my brother is a gay and my father had an exitramarital affair with his office collegue from past two yrs. I dont know what to do, with whom to share as these problems if discussed will hamper those involved. My boss pressurises me for giving so less time for research. I get to sleep so less I am having regular headaches. My son disturbs all night yet my hubby insists I sleep beside him so that he can have a good nights sleep.Every day I have to travel 2 hrs to get to work. He used the car when he used to go to the office. I dont earn as much so I am left to public transport. I have to care for my son whenever I am home.
I am tired of lieing to people about how sacrificing my hubby is as he is taking care of our son while I am building up a career. Actually he is unable to find anything and has been out of work for past 1 1/2 yrs.
Sometimes I feel like dieing or killing my son. He expects me to manage both worlds while he will wallow in self pity. Please advice he needs councelling and I am really really tireed. I am losing the battle and faith.