I am a murderer
I spent 5 years of my life thinking that I was doing something big and important. While serving in the military, I never thought that I was fighting for "freedom" or protecting tha nation form some horrible evil; I just thought of myself as one guy doing his job like everyone else. After spending several tours in Iraq and Afghanistan I continued to see nothing change, nothing improved. We'd go out on our patrols, we talk to people, every now and then engaging insurgents, but nothing would change.
Now that I am home, I run into people who occasionally "thank" me for my service. Thank me for what? For going to another country and killing its people in the name of something that doesnt exist? I, like the rest of this country was duped into thinking I was doing something for the greater good and what did we get? If youre asking what my confession is, it is that I am a murderer, the only "difference" is that myself and others had the O.K. from the government.
I should be jailed, or removed from this place. I cant stop thinking of how many lives I took or how stupid I was to fight in a pointless war. Now what I have left from the war is a collection of memories, some of friends that have passed, others of terryfying moments of my life. Some of you will call me out, calling me unamerican or whatever you like, and that's fine, youre entitled to what you want, I really dont care.